Terminating thread

30/5/2006. 3 am

Fading away I turned around
I could hear a remnant of a sound
Pausing a while I tried to hear..listen
As the tears fell to the ground they glistened

I knew it was not meant to be
Another broken heart I could not see
Embracing the grief of the tear
I chose to be a mourner sans fear .

In the dark I stood and watched
A pensive step and silent shuffle
A memory being read in a fond grimace
In a moment of weakness my will trifled

An animal grunt my throat escaped
She turned around with fear emboldened
In the dark I could see, a will unscathed
To endure suffering her fate she had resigned.

Coming closer my cloak I withdrew
Showing who I was for real
In her eyes the story unfolded true
In mine my heart waited in an ordeal

Betrayal, hopelessness … relief..Ecstasy
For a long time we stood, I knew not why
In her presence I could not move
She wept as she devoured me with hungry eyes

Her love had been lost
To see her suffer had I tried
To watch the torment of the deprived
Until I knew her life and mine would be the cost

Why had she made me suffer since ..
The time she knew we were meant to be one
Words could no longer be minced
For no thought no body, there were none

A tender touch in the twilight drizzle,
Turned to a violent desire, a fight
A will to own to possess the other, the skin bristled
In a moment of glory, it ended … it was a gory sight

She lay in my arms, a smile on her lips
As she bled …her fingers loosened
The gun slipped out of her grip
A treacherous task had it failed

Part of the job, was this danger
In a trance the gun returned to the holster
If killing was just pulling a trigger
Would nt life be simple ..a snigger

The first time it would ve been,
That I went against a rule
The hunted tried the hunter to be
And to the calling function I returned a bool true.

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Insomnia

31/5/2006. 3 am

Waking up in a strange place
I see myself in the mirror on the wall
There I saw an even stranger face
Where was I, had I lost it all?

A day not recent,
I entered. Life so clean
An inspiring rise I had made being decent
Thought I knew everything to be said and seen

A disarming smile I encountered
At every corner of the fast lane
“You the one … who’s needed”
“Here ...you are the main”

At wits end I would always be,
Until the unlikely truth I could almost see.
Every time that smile came back
I knew this was a code I had to hack

A hole too deep I was stepping in
Every helping hand pushed me a little further
Until without one I was afraid to sin
Thinking I was safe in the hands of a brother

As the twilight set in ,
My eyes went dim, portending sleep
The hole I fell into, too much had I sinned
A never ending night, the darkness was complete..

The light came, so sudden
It purged the lingering night
An unfamiliar bed … a naked woman
As I shook my head, she stirred... What a sight

“Honey, it’s too early”
“Come back to bed”
As I stared at the gesturing nymph
A hand I felt on my shoulder

A dream I thought this weird plot
Turning around I saw a mirror stare
In it I stood a moment silent in thought
And then I turned in bed without a care


A familiar pattern emerged through the night
A dream it is when there is a fight
Or when there’s a woman for sex
Or when quake and life mix
And when a mind is made a slave…
For unfitting knaves.

At last the hole opened up dark, wide
I dropped in with a smile wry
Goodbye to consciousness, conscience...And tears dry
I was going to rest in peace, until to work I had to ride.